Little dairyman

My son, his herdsman and his herd.
Kinda makes me want to have a real dairy.

Pictures of Lil Mr. Marcus

LIFE IN GENERAL FOR ME!!!

So I was feeling like perhaps I need to vent a little bit and this seems to be a good place to do it. Now to start off let me just say that I deeply love my husband but he does drive me nuts from time to time. In the past 2 days it seems like whenever I have asked him to do something for me that involves OUR son, he ignores me or passes him off to his mother because what he has to do is more important. This just drives me up the wall because if I am asked to do something and it involves our son I jump on it...I don't pass the buck.

Another thing/person bothering me right now is my mother in law. I am VERY grateful to her for letting us come and live with her but she does things sometimes and I am not sure if she does them on purpose. Like when she threw away(actually she had my husband do it)breast milk that I had pumped and was saving. Breast milk is good for 6 months. Then she gave my child, her grandchild DIET 7-up. Honestly what was she thinking...or was she?

Last complaint/ concern... I wish that parents and adult children could understand that when all else fails you are supposed to be there for your family. Those that have a family should feel grateful and do everything to preserve it. Sometimes that means sucking it up and admitting when you are wrong. Disputes/Arguements and misunderstandings can tear a family apart and it is such a shame. There is no stronger bond then that between a parent and child. When that bond is damaged or broken it is hard to repair. My MiL just lost her mother and I am beginning to understand a great deal about who she is now and it is because that bond was broken early and never repaired. She has alot of hurt and many issues because of it. I don't think she would have been the same person had she been able to repair or rebuild the bond that she and her mother had. They both did a huge dis-service to my husband by not being honest/open and forgiving to each other. Marcus Sr. doesn't know what it is like to have a grandparent. He never had one! I work very hard to make sure that he and his mom stay on good terms because I don't want my son to not have one of his grandparents.
OK so I am done bitching...now on to talking about other people...mainly my son!!!!

I'm kinda scared cause he'll be in a dead sleep and start screaming. Sometimes he wakes up and sometimes he doesn't. I think that about half the time it is because he has a gas bubble but then there are those times when he hasn't eaten at all before going to sleep and will scream. These screams aren't your normal I'm hungry or I need some attention over here burps. When he does this you would think someone was cutting something like his arm off. The phrase, "blood curdling" comes to mind. It seems like when I have mentioned this to the pediatricians they seem to think that it is no big deal. BUt I feel as though he might be having night terrors. Which his father also had. Hereditary?
He is growing up so fast and will be so grown up before I know it. I wish sometimes that I could keep him small forever.

One last person to talk about is my great great Aunt Teen. She is such a sweetheart. I am truly grateful that she has been part of my life. I am glad that I have the chance to let my son get to know her as well. She is one of a kind and a true lady!

Children: Batteries not included...

Ok so you might think that this is about my kid crashing. Well, it is and it isn't. I got to thinking about the toys we have already bought for Marcus. So, far we've gotten out easy in the toy department but his equiptment is what's killing us right now. His bouncer, swing and musical toy for his baby gym all require batteries. Even his baby bath and the baby motion alarm need batteries. When does it stop. Even as adult some of our "toys" need batteries.(No I'm not going there)

So, yeah wouldn't it be nice if our kids came with batteries. When ever they got fussy, we'd just put in a fresh set of batteries and then they'd be happy again. Or if wwe wanted them to be quiet for a while we'd take the batteries out. I know I live in a dream but hey it's my blog!

The trials and tribulations of a first time mom...

Ok, so my son has been home for about a month now.He and I spent the first 3.5 weeks of his life in the NICU. This made for some very difficult bonding. Add to that the fact that he was 6 weeks early. So, little marcus has just really started acting like a newborn in the 2 weeks. I have receiced TONS of advice from everyone. the most upsetting ones are how people are saying that i hold him too much. Well, I'm sorry but I almost lost my son and I'm LITTLE paranoid.I didn't think that you could hold an infant too much. So, needless to say i tried to let him self soothe today and I guess I overdid it. Perhaps, letting him cry for a halfhour to 45 minutes was a little much. But when giving all this great advice nobody bothered to give me time lines on how long to wait to pick him up up. So now I have been to the 2 extremes. I guess I'll have to figure it out for myself. What I would really like to do is tell people to not give out advice unless you are going to be VERY explicit in your advice.

The picture above is what he looked like after I finally got him to sleep! So tightly hold my shirt. Which was there because it has my smell on it and is supposed to be soothing to him.

See Tommy your not the only spouse that gets picked on...

Just thought I'd let Tom Stapley know he's not the only one who gets picked on by his spouse. I get picked on daily...but occasionally I get my revenge.

The boys

These are my main men!